Monday, April 30, 2012

Devotional: Waiting for God to Fill the Cradle

Waiting for God to Fill the Cradle


I am currently on Day 3 of 30 of the following devotional.  One of the ladies at church shared an article with me a few months ago from Crosswalk.  There are many resources available for people going through struggles with Infertility, but few that focus on scripture.  I've found a few different websites that I frequent, and was excited to start this particular devotional written by another couple battling Infertility.  

Here's a topic breakdown by week:
Week One
Theme:  God is the Giver of Children
Week Two
Theme:  Finding my Identity and Direction in God's Word
Week Three
Theme:  Where to put the Disappointment
Week Four
Theme:  Mining for the Gold During this Season of Waiting



Right now, the devotional is only available for Kindle.  (I downloaded the Kindle app and paid $4.99 for the book to be downloaded to my iPod.)  

I will post more as I continue reading.  For the past few weeks I've felt more at peace about our current fertility situation.  I pray that God continues to give us peace as we get closer to beginning IVF.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

My Infertility Superhero

My Infertility Superhero is Sheri, my sister-in-law.  Her story has been incredibly inspirational to me.  She is married to my husband's brother, Brian.  They tied the knot on April 17, 2004.  Her doctors had given her an indication that if they wanted children, they should start trying sooner rather than later.

Married 2004

They had their fair share of struggles with Infertility.


She tried Clomid, Femara, Injects, 6 IUIs, 3 IVFs, and 2 FETs.  She had multiple HSGs, SISs, and numerous surgeries.  She also started her journey at UAB and ended up at ART at Brookwood.  (After our issues with UAB, we chose to move to ART because they had given us our nephew, and Sheri spoke so highly of them.)

On her 3rd IVF attempt, she got pregnant with our nephew, Bryson.
He is almost 3 years old now. =)  God is so good!  He does provide!

They had two remaining frozen embryos and did a transfer this past August, but she miscarried at 5 weeks 2 days.  From her first beta, the numbers were low and she remained in "beta hell" for over a week.  She would have been due this week.  Even though she experienced this loss, she stayed so strong and positive. 

Christmas 2009
Sheri is diagnosed as having "unexplained infertility" and now secondary infertility.  When I first met her, they were already well into their journey of trying to conceive.  It was hard for me to understand what she was going through.  I would just listen.  Most of the time, I ended up having to look up things on google because I didn't understand all of the procedures she was talking about.  I remember when the 2nd IVF attempt failed.  I was upset for her but didn't know what to say.  When she told me how much she longed for a child, I didn't understand.  Even though her desire for a child was strong, she remained so positive to those around her. 
Football Season 2010
When we decided to start trying, she was the first person I told.  She told me all about Fertility Friend.  I don't think she even thought we'd have this much trouble getting pregnant!  My journey would have been so different without her.  I would be lost.  I would be mad.  I would be depressed.


Football Season 2011
I have been lucky to be able to share my journey with her.  Many women go through this alone.  She has held my hand each and every step of the way.  She and I have dissected  my charts, obsessed over symptoms, and cried many tears together.  Our friendship has grown.  I can't go more than a few days without talking to her.  I wouldn't have been able to make it this far in the journey without her.  She has carried me.  She has prayed for me.  She has been one of the few people that I talk to on a regular basis that truly knows how I'm feeling.  God puts people in our lives for a reason.  Sometimes I wonder if I married Brandon just to have Sheri as my sister (kidding, love you Brandon!). 

Not every hero wears a mask. 

Friday, April 27, 2012

Don't Ignore Life's Blessings

It's hard to not become wrapped up in the negativity of any situation.  It's important to set aside time to focus on all of the good things in life.

I want to encourage YOU, Don't Ignore Life's Blessings.  

This applies to my fellow blogger friends suffering from Infertility, as well as everyone else reading.  God does not want any of us to hurt.  I myself have struggled to find peace in many of our difficult situations.  It takes effort.  It's much easier to stay sad and throw yourself a pity party.

God has blessed me with some pretty amazing people in my life.  Y'all have heard me shout Brandon's praises.  He's a great and Godly husband.  He may not be perfect, but he acknowledges his faults.  Our faith family at church has been unbelievable.  They are always a phone call or text away with affirmations of their continued support for us.  I've got so many girl friends (pregnant and not, married and single) who are always looking out for me.

Today, I am one step closer in our pathway to parenthood.  I am not cycling, but each day offers new hope.  God blessed me with my friends and family and YOU.         

I want to leave you with a song that my pastor shared with us a few months ago.  It's a song written by Laura Story entitled "Blessings." 


Enjoy the little things. Zombieland Rule #32
Basic understanding of the disease of Infertility.
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Thursday, April 26, 2012

One Lovely Blog Award

Amy from Carney Exploits nominated me for a blog award!  Thank you! 




Here are the rules:
1.  Share who gave you this award with link back to their blog.
2.  Write down 7 random facts about yourself.
3.  Give this award to 15 (or more) other bloggers.

My Random Facts:

  1. I call my husband Sneakers and he calls me Mrs. Sneakers.  We hope to have a Baby Sneakers someday! 
  2. We have two sweet furbabies, Logan (corgi mix) and Daisy (rottweiler/lab mix).
  3. I love country music.
  4. I have two degrees that I'm not using (Bachelor's in History and Masters in Secondary Education).
  5. Zombies are awesome.  I'm a huge fan of The Walking Dead.
  6. Reading is one of my favorite past times.
  7. My husband is the biggest superhero nerd I've ever met. 


My Nominations (in no particular order):
Between the Paper Sheets
The Bickerstaff Blog
Clay Babboons
Living Our Life in Cycles
Follow Every Rainbow
Pink Lucy
Notes from the Ninth Circle
The Journey of a Woman Warrior
Busted Plumbing
Battle Fish
Baby-Making Merry-go-Round
Living with Endo (and Infertility)
Our Journey:  Infertility and Beyond
Non Sequitur Chica
Waltzing in Galoshes
Our Growing Gardunn
Still Not Pregnant

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Angels

To most of you reading, y'all know that IVF is expensive.  Ok, that's an understatement!  The procedure itself can cost anywhere from $8-10k depending on the clinic.  That does NOT include the medications required.  They can range from $3-5k alone. 



Toni at Who is This "Fertile Myrtle?" graciously donated her unused Follistim to us for use in our IVF cycle.  The estimate for my IVF cycle will be about 125 IU per day for 12 days.  This one box will take care of half of my stimming! 


As Brandon said, she will forever receive Christmas cards with photos of our future children.  She herself just came out of a failed IVF cycle and is preparing for one more in September.  She easily could have chosen to save the medicine for herself.  I am still floored and shocked by the love she has shown us.  It will not go unnoticed or unrewarded.  She has inspired Brandon and I to try and do more for those around us.  I hope that when we have our children, we can do more to help those struggling with the financial burned of Infertility. 

Thank you, Toni.  God is shining through you to me.  You are continually in my prayers.  I pray that God will bless you as you have me.