More Instagram & Baseline Appointment

Well, AF arrived sooner than expected.  I had planned to call the nurse at ART today to ask for Provera.  God decided otherwise (probably with some help from the supermoon).  I noticed some spotting Friday afternoon and "she" showed up in full force on Saturday.  I was extremely confused and even called Kayla to try and figure out my wonky cycle.  During this previous cycle, I never ovulated or had a clear pattern.  I had some strange mid-cycle spotting and felt all over the place.

Previous cycle's BBT chart

I only spotted yesterday and seem to be doing the same today.  My baseline appointment is scheduled for tomorrow morning at 9:15am. This starts my 19th cycle TTC. I am hopeful that the 2.35cm cyst from my past two cycles is gone.  God, I know you are hearing this.  If it is your will, let the cyst be gone. 

Tomorrow will only be 4 weeks since Brandon began his fast from Skoal.  I am in hopes that they will go ahead and allow me to begin taking BCP in preparation for IVF.  I don't feel ready.  I was still planning on having 2 more weeks, but God's timing is always the best timing.

Here are a few more of my photos from the May Photo Challenge. These pictures aren't as pretty as the ones in my first post.  I promise to try harder with the next batch!  Enjoy!

May 5- Bird - from the Mother Daughter Banquet

May 6- Me- Laying out in the backyard

May 7- Someone that inspires you- My husband works so hard to provide for me.

This isn't fair

"The fair comes once a year, stays about a week, and then it's gone."  -Rachel Krebs

 

This cycle is driving me crazy.  For about five days now, I've felt cramps and been sure that AF is on her way.  My temperature has made NO sense at all.  It typically nose dives a few days after my last Provera.  I'm now 6 days past my last pill.  Even now as I type I swear that I feel cramps again.

I already called and cancelled my appointment.  As fairness goes, I'm sure that AF will show up this afternoon.  If I start in the next few days, I'm sure that I can make my appointment for Friday morning.  Brandon was supposed to go to Huntsville, but cancelled .  At least I won't have to go to the appointment alone.  

This whole situation has reminded me of Infertility's unpredictability.  Who would have known that it would take 3 HSGs and 2 surgeries to get my uterus "right" for baby making.  I've had 3 cancelled IUI cycles in less than a year.  At the end of the day, none of this is fair.  It's not fair for anyone to have to endure.  I just have to trust that this is part of the plan.