Finally Friday

I finally slept last night, but dreamed about holding babies.  One of our customers yesterday told us about how she finally got pregnant but lost her baby and has been too devastated to try again.  It was sad.  I told her about Fertility Friend and how it's a great support system for women in all different situations.  I hope she gets the courage to try again and have a baby to take home this time. 

Yesterday flew by.  I sold 2 rings to a lady(1 engagement for her and an engagement ring for her fiance.)

I also started reading 1984 by George Orwell.  Somehow I never read that book in school.  One of the girls at work is supposed to read it for summer reading, so I thought I'd read it to help her out.  I mean, I love reading and need something to occupy my thoughts.  =)  It's a great book thus far. The government controls everything and everyone is filled with paranoia about "Big Brother" watching. 

Closer to the weekend

The violent hot flashes apparently never left. =(  I woke up last night in a full sweat.  It's awful.  Brandon got out of the bed so I could try to sleep.  I typically have flashes during the Luteal Phase of my cycle when my progesterone is elevated-not when I'm still menstrual. 

I had a rough day yesterday.  I'm not sure why; I just didn't feel good.  Brandon and I desperately need a vacation, but can't find the time to go.  He's got so much going on at work that it would be at least another month before he could go...then I wouldn't be able to go because of work.  I'm so jealous of everyone talking about going to the beach when we can't.  I don't think there's ever been a summer where I haven't gone.  We did go back in February, but that was February!  I guess I shouldn't be complaining.  I only have about a month and 3 weeks until surgery and then onward to better things. =) 

Long day

I'm ready for the weekend.

Brandon bought NCAA 2011 today.  We'll never sleep together again...Just kidding.  He was so thoughtful to buy a zombie-killing video game for me to play with him.  (Because nothing says let's spend time together like killing zombies.)  My husband baffles me sometimes.   =) 

Cycle 10

Well, I'm already on CD3.  I treated myself to a tanning package today.  =)  I might as well enjoy the little things while taking a forced break from TTC (Zombieland Rule #32).

 I'm finally feeling like the birth control has left my system entirely.  My boobs ached for 30+ days and I had some violent hot flashes. I'm not looking forward to taking BCP again for my surgery in September.  Hopefully I'll have a normal cycle and then start them again sometime in August for the procedure.

Time seems to be moving swiftly at the moment.  The summer's almost over.  Days at work keep me occupied thinking about things other than TTC.  Since I spend all of my time at work, I'm mostly thinking about other stuff.  I need to go out and buy myself some new books to read.  Right now I just need hobbies to keep me from dwelling on the surgery in September. 

AF

AF arrived yesterday.  =)  I'm one more step closer to surgery in September and becoming a parent.

Impatiently waiting...

Finally it's Friday.  My car is already fixed.  Thankfully it only needed a new battery. 

Of the blogs I read, everyone is talking about IUIs and test results.  I feel left behind until September.  I took my last BCP on Tuesday and am still waiting on AF to arrive.  Being a planner, I enjoyed scheduling all of the DR appointments and knowing when things were going to happen.  Now I feel like I have no idea.  I can't remember how long it typically took AF to arrive after BCP.  I have no idea what type of cycle I will have next.  I don't even think I'll temp.  I mean, it doesn't matter if I know when I ovulate or not....CM will be noticeable anyway.

Yesterday at work we looked at different photographers' websites.  They were filled with maternity and newborn pictures.  I was so excited to think about what types of photos Brandon and I would want with out child.  I didn't get upset, but couldn't stop thinking about them as I went to sleep last night.  I can't wait until Brandon and I are pregnant.  Previously, it had seemed so close within reach and now it doesn't.  If I can just make it through these two months and get closer to September.  By the way, it's looking like September 8 will be my tentative surgery date.   

Busy, Bad Day

Had a super busy day at work today.  As I went to crank my car to head to a business dinner, nothing happened.  My car is dead.  I went on to dinner and had Brandon and Dad try to figure out what was wrong.  The tow truck had to come and get my car.  =(  Now I get to drive Brandon to work at 7am tomorrow morning. 

It's going to be a long rest-of-the-week. =(

Waiting for Cycle 10...

I took my last BCP last night.  I'm looking forward to cycle 10 as a stress-free cycle.  =)

Brandon and his brother drove to Louisiana yesterday to visit their grandmother in the hospital.  Did I mention that I do NOT like to stay home by myself?  I barely got any sleep last night.  I took 2 Tylenol PMs and still barely rested.  I feel ok right now but will have to pound the caffeine to stay functional today.

Brandon and I have talked about not taking BCP for this next cycle.  Lately, I've felt like I'm in a fog.  I can't survive the afternoon without a shot of Pepto Bismol, and I get so tired for no reason.  Maybe I'll take this next cycle off and then start BCP for the next go round to get ready for surgery.  

Holiday Weekend at the Lake

The weekend is finally here.  =)  We're headed to the lake this morning.  As soon as we finish packing up our clothes and food, we'll be ready to hit the road.  Brandon and I both need some downtime away from work and fertility.  Plus, I get to spend time with my Sheri and sweet nephew. 

Weekend =)

Brandon had yesterday afternoon off and took me on a lunch date.  It was nice to see him.  We tried not to talk about fertility stuff, although that's hard these days.  He got home and our AC was out, but thankfully he had it fixed before I got home.

We're going to the lake in the morning.  I'll be glad to be away from work and home for a few days. I'm going to wait until next week to call my RE nurse about BCP.  I just need to "stay away from fertility issues" right now.  I don't even want to have to call them.  AND, I'm hoping that all people who know about my cancelled surgery will stop giving me unwanted advice about stressing and patience and how everything happens for a reason.  =)  I know these things already.  And when you don't know what to say to comfort someone, don't say anything at all.  Just say that you're sorry and let it go.