I've been extremely tired for the past few days. I've been waking up around 3:30-4 am not able to go back to sleep. I made hairbows one morning and worked on my scrapbook the next. Kate came over on Thursday afternoon and helped me around the house. She ran the vacuum cleaner and even cleaned the baseboards in my hallway! She put away the remainder of Ellie's clothes we received at our last baby shower and helped me clean out my closet.
Even if I'm able to sleep in until 7 am I still need a nap. I'm trying to get at least a two-hour nap every day. My body feels like it's starting to wear down, but I did run myself ragged over the past month and a half.
When I'm out in public people just stare at me because my belly has grown so large. An older gentleman in WalMart thought I was about to deliver in the check out line and helped me take out all of my purchases from the cart.
Driving in the car isn't that bad, but getting out is. For me to comfortable reach the pedals, my belly is all but touching the steering wheel. I have to move my seat backwards to get out and I still struggle. I'm trying to limit my outings and only go somewhere when I don't have to drive.
My thoughts are all so jumbled right now. I'm 38 weeks pregnant today and growing impatient. Everyone says that babies are born when they're ready, but what about the mother? I'm ready. My body isn't super uncomfortable, but I long to hold Elliana in my arms.
After two years of trying to conceive including: my husband's battle with Testicular Cancer, a Uterine Septum requiring two surgeries, Stage II Endometriosis, three HSGs, one SIS, one failed IUI cycle(Chemical Pregnancy), one IVF cycle cancelled by Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome (OHSS), and one Frozen Embryo Transfer (FET) cycle- we triumphed over infertility and delivered our first child on May 21, 2013. We are currently expecting an unexpected miracle baby in May 2015.
Hang in there, it won't be long before you do get those sweet cuddles.
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