I am definitely torn. It's on my perineum- about a 1.5 cm long tear. The stitch is visible underneath as the tear is superficial. They did not want to re stitch me, but let it heal from the inside out. Dr. Radbill's exact words were that I was going to be miserable for a few more weeks. Because of my past issues with stomach troubles, it's a harder recovery. To be brutally honest, I have textbook IBS. You have no idea how embarrassing it is to lay all of your issues out on the table. I mean, seriously, everybody poops. BUT I go way more often than most people. Because my tummy is so active it's hard for my damaged area to heal. They prescribed me more pain medication, but a step down from Percocet (Vicodin).
Ellie couldn't have been a better little girl today. She never made a peep from the time we put her in the carseat headed to the hospital. She didn't wake up until we were back home about two hours later. She's such a great little girl and must know that Mommy is having a hard time.
Thank you for all of the sweet comments, prayers, and well wishes. Not everyone has been supportive of my recovery. It's not that they're not supportive, but they don't grasp the extensive damage that was done during Elliana's delivery. Your words were exactly what I needed to read today. Your words have kept me going.
Ouch ouch ouch! I hope and pray you heal quickly. The things we mommies have to go through for our wonderful children. In the end it's all worth it. I completely understand the IBS part so I can only imagine the 'frequent' pain. So so sorry. Get well quick!
ReplyDeleteI have IBS too. It is so not fun!
ReplyDeleteChildbirth can be physically and emotionally traumatic! It just takes time to put ourselves back together.
ReplyDeleteOh girl. I am just praying this recovery goes quickly for you. I will be thinking of you lots in the next coming weeks. I am so sorry you are having to deal with all of this!
ReplyDeleteI have lived with IBS since I was in grade school. Unless you have it you don't know so don't pay attention to the haters. I couldn't even imagine adding a tear to the mix. You are a strong woman, with a wonderful husband. You will get through this.. I will be praying for quick healing.
ReplyDeleteI'm stunned someone would right a negative comment about your recovery. This isn't something that was even in your control. Congrats on your beautiful daughter. God Bless your family and I pray you continue to heal.
ReplyDeleteI've been a follower of your blog for awhile and just wanted to post a quick comment of encouragement. I had some bad tearing with my first baby and also went to the doctor for a second checkup since I was in SO MUCH PAIN. I couldn't sit, sleep, walk, etc and was in tears non-stop from the pain. It did help to stay "ahead" of the pain with my meds and to be told that I just needed time to heal. I had this irrational fear the entire time that I'd never be able to walk or sit again! Please know that there is hope, it WILL get better and you will feel normal again. I know this is really difficult to handle on top of a newborn to take care of so please hang in there. You are most certainly not alone in this and I'm sorry you are getting any negative or discouraging comments at all.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear this. I had problems healing for about six months after my delivery, so I hear ya. Hope things get better soon.
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