Tuesday, April 5, 2011

I don't have a title.

Since I last wrote, I have begun exercising.  I LOVE Zumba and received the Kinect game for the XBOX at Christmas.  I figured that I needed to get my weight under control.  I've NEVER had to worry about my size before--maybe my metabolism is slowing down.  I exercise before I go to work each morning so I don't have to embarrass myself later when B's home. ; ) 

Today, I am on CD 25.  A couple of weeks ago, B said that he was ready to start actively TTC.  I was thrilled!  We've been "doing the dance" almost every day, but I have yet to ovulate.  =(  I even bought PreSeed for us to try (it's the only fertility-friendly lubrication).  I think I'll call the doctor on Friday(CD28) and ask for Provera.  I do NOT want to take it; however, I will not wait forever and have a 50 day cycle.  I just feel so cheated.  B and I were both in agreement that we were ready to start our family, and then my body had to disagree. 

At least I'll look skinny until I get pregnant.  =)  I must find the positive in this unsettling situation.  I just keep seeing all of these other pregnant women everywhere.  It's like when you buy a new car and suddenly see it all over the roads.  Well, I'm sure this is different, but it feels the same to me.  I honestly don't even know what I'll do when I see a positive on a hpt.