Rainy Days and Mondays

Mondays are typically not my favorite day of the week. . . BUT today has actually been great!  Brandon and I carpooled to work this morning (truck's in the shop) and it was just nice to spend some time with him. =)

My Dad's surprise birthday party was great!  He was genuinely surprised and thankful for everyone coming out to celebrate his birthday.  The baby shower was also a success.  I was hoping for a better turnout for Liz, but I guess some people were busy.  Nonetheless, we had fun catching up and talking about babies! 
Liz made me a necklace with a St. Gerard pendant on it.  I'm not well versed in the saints, but this one is the Patron Saint of Motherhook-I think.  =)  It was a sweet gift from an even sweeter friend.

I actually feel like all is right in the world-for the time being.  =)  I'm sure I'll have a meltdown at some point during the week over something stupid.  At least for now I actually feel happy and in control.  =)

I do believe that this is one of the most positive blog entries I've ever written.  I'm sure that the few people who read this think I'm the most depressing person in the world.  I have nowhere to vent my anger/sadness, so it ends up here or Brandon gets stuck listening to me whine and complain.  *Having a blog helps my marriage. =) *

Dad's Birthday

Yesterday was my Dad's 48th birthday!  Cathy came up with the idea to throw a surprise party for him at Margarita Grill.  I'm so excited!  He has absolutely no idea and thinks that we all downplayed his birthday.  I even lied and told him that I wasn't able to buy a gift for him.  I can't wait to see his face when he opens his gift! I bought him the new Fossil Auburn National Championship watch. 

My boss called me at dinner last night and told me to take today off. =)  He's probably one of the better people that I've ever worked for.  At least he sees how tired and stressed his employees get.  I haven't had two days off in a row in a LONG time. 

The past few days have gotten better. (I'm sorry for not responding to comments-I forgot to check them!) 

OOOO and I get to co-host my very first baby shower tomorrow for a dear friend tomorrow!  I'm a little stressed because my house looks terrible right now, but I can clean later.  Plus, "a clean house is a sign of a wasted life."

Monday

Today was a rough day.  I woke up with this awful stye on my eye, which made it difficult to see.  Work wasn't that bad, but the day just seemed to drag.  I felt so strange.  I think I slept well last night, between the nightmares about unfinished assignments.  I've been out of school since May, but still have recurring dreams about school! 

We have less than a month before we go to the beach.  It will be nice to be away and alone with Brandon for a weekend.  Only downfall is that he wants to take the XBOX with us.  =/   That just doesn't seem romantic to me! 

I think I'm ok with not being pregnant right now.  I don't cry when I see pregnant women anymore, so that's good.  I still haven't wanted to be around the women in my small group at church.  I have nothing in common with them anymore.  I have no passion to even go to church.  My sis-in-law said that we should start looking for a new church home.  I just don't feel that anyone has truly reached out to us in our absense from church.  That may seem like an excuse.  Maybe it is.  I just don't want to go where I feel that I don't belong.  When I'm around them I feel like a failure for not already being a parent.  I feel like I'm not a member of the club of parenthood.  I wish that I  knew other women going through what I am.  It's hard to feel so alone with my internal struggles about motherhood.  I know that Brandon feels the same way about being a parent, but men don't talk about that when they're hanging out.  Women who are mothers only know how to talk about their children--especially stay-at-home mothers.  Brandon and I will both make great parents once the time comes.  I know that when we're ready, God will give us a sign.  I just wish that I had someone in the meantime to talk to.  =(

I have nothing creative or profound to say.  I just needed to vent my frustrations from the day.

I'm terrible at blogging

I haven't blogged in ages.  =/

Christmas was busy with work and family!  Thankfully it's over!! 

I spent my birthday in Atlanta for work.  It was a nice trip-snow and all, but I missed not being with Brandon on my birthday. 

I need a vacation.  Thankfully, we're going to the beach next month.  =)