I said that I wasn't going to be one of those moms who abandons her blog once the baby arrives. I guess I was wrong! I miss writing and am going to make more time in my day to capture my thoughts. It's like free therapy.
Elliana has grown up so much. She's rolling over from back to tummy now, reaching for me and her bottle, and laughing and smiling all of the time. She's a happy baby as long as I'm around! To say that she's a bit attached to me is an understatement. I am so blessed to be staying at home with her, but I do need her to be around other people as well.
I honestly have no idea how other SAHMs do it. They always look like they just have it all together. I'm lucky to brush my teeth and shower each day. I choose whether it's more important to eat or clean while Ellie naps. Heavens, we're still not sleeping through the night and have begun waking every two hours again. It's not been fun at all! I often find myself feeling so guilty to have prayed and prayed for this little person when I'm crying because I just-need-a-break. I don't know if it's just me or the PPD making me crazy. I was in hopes that my depression would have lessened by now but it's still a daily struggle.
Nothing about motherhood has been what I expected. I knew that each day would come with it's own challenges, but I did not envision severe acid reflux, early teething, possible renal refulx, EEGs, EKGs, upper GIs, catheter bladder samples, rectal exams, and multiple blood draws (including a cranium draw) in the first four months of Ellie's birth. We've definitely had some scares and issues with our little girl's health, but I do rely on the ultimate Healer.
I haven't seen my blog as a priority of my free time, but I see now how much I have missed this place. I still read all of your blogs and love keeping up with the journeys that everyone is in. To all of you still in the trenches, I am praying with you to achieve your FOREVER FAMILY.
You are doing great - despite if your teeth are brushed or you have showered!!
ReplyDeleteYou're busy being Ellie's mom...and that's so much more important. Thanks for the update love.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you and your sweet baby! You're doing such a grea
ReplyDeleteGreat job! :) (I have no idea why my comment for cut off! Ha!)
ReplyDeleteGreat to read your new blog entry! I know it is tough to be a first time mom. I have a 7 month old and also blog, and it is very hard to blog like I used to. So I understand you have no time. And believe me I don't have it together either. I think those SAHM that you mention probably have a nanny or some sort of family help. You are doing a wonderful job. Can't wait for the next blog :).
ReplyDeleteI really appreciate your honesty about how hard parenting can be, even when we dream and pray for it for so long. You and your family are in my thoughts!
ReplyDeleteThank you for your honesty. This does scare me. I pray every single moment I get a chance - 20+times a day that our dreams will come true - but it scares me how hard parenting is going to be. But I'm sure you are doing everything you know to be right and love that little girl with all your heart!
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