Saturday, May 12, 2012

Mother's Day for the Infertilie

Mother's Day is difficult for many women and men.  

Some have lost their mothers, and some have lost their children.  I am positive that many women and men are hurting.  I think it's important to recognize all of the people longing for lost loved ones today.

If my pregnancy had not ended so quickly, I would be about 30 weeks pregnant today.  My little one would be able to hear my voice.  Instead, I have a baby in Heaven.  Our first Baby Sneakers is in the loving arms of Jesus.  I truly believe that that life begins at conception.  Just because we lost our pregnancy early, it doesn't mean that it hurts any less.  I have made it my resolve to move forward and try and not dwell too much on it.  Days arise where I feel saddened by losing that pregnancy, but I know that God had a greater plan.

All that I have to remember you by.  I've kept this put away for so long.  It made me sad to see it.  Maybe I should get rid of it, but I cannot.  For now, I will continue to keep it tucked away as a memory.

Today, I have to work, but we are headed to the beach as soon as I'm off.  (I'm going to the beach with my dear husband, amazing brother-in-law, awesome sister-in-law, and miracle of a nephew).  Thankfully, they invited us to go to the beach with them.  Looking at the calendar, I had been afraid of Mother's Day.  I didn't know how I would feel.  I was afraid that I would be sad.  Yes, I am sad, but I have hope.  I couldn't be surrounded by better people that know how much days like these hurt.  

I know that God has something greater in store for me.  He does for you too.  Happy Mother's Day to all of the angel Mommies and childless Mommies.  Thinking of all who are missing their own mothers on this day.


  1. I know exactly how you feel. I'm hesitant to blog about mother's day. I want to, but I'm not sure anyone in my life understands the pain of what we're going through. I can't force anyone to understand that miscarriage is losing a life, not just something that happens and you move on. I too would be 30 weeks at this point.

    Court, I can't thank you enough for sharing your journey and for all of your comments on my blog. You are an inspiration. I truly am praying for you as you go into IVF territory. I can't wait to "blog stalk" you for lil embryo updates. Hopefully we will both be celebrating a mother's day next year.

  2. What a beautiful post. I'm sorry that you're hurting but I'm sure your angel baby is sending you lots of love. I'm glad that you will spend the weekend surrounded by those who love and understand you. That in itself is a huge gift from God. Hugs to you and thank you for posting your kind words!

  3. Thank you for your beautiful post. I'm thankful to have my mom and try to concentrate on that. But it is tough. Hope you have fun at the beach!

  4. Sending you love and prayers... You are handling this difficult time with poise and grace, as you handle everything. This is your year, love. I can't wait to celebrate mother's day with you next year! Thank you for being a positive influence in my life, I appreciate it more than you know.

  5. I am thinking of you today, hoping that things seem a little bit brighter and that you're holding on to that hope with everything you can. Take care.

  6. I'm sorry to hear about your baby. I would have been 25 weeks today if I didn't lose my baby too.

  7. I would have been 25 weeks too ... hugs to all of you, and I hope we are all celebrating the next Mother's Day that rolls around.

  8. This post says it all. I know exactly how you feel. I hurt as I send out a text message to all my friends who have already become Mommies and I am still waiting for the special day. I am already a step-mom but because he isn't my birth child it isn't the same and no one recognizes it as that. I hope next year every one of us can hear those precious words... "Happy Mother's Day"


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