The outpouring of love we received yesterday was amazing.
I had to go back to ART for repeat labs. Everything was NORMAL! (They were worried about my BUN levels being low due to OHSS) I still am feeling awful each day battling tummy issues, headaches, sleeplessness, and emotions everywhere. From what I can gather, being emotional right now is just par for the course.
Right now I'm living on peppermints for nausea, Zofran (nausea) , Lomotil (spastic colon), Tylenol (sinus headaches?), Ambien (sleep issues), and Valium (panic/nerves). I'm not ashamed of what I'm going through right now.
I cried this morning when I thought Brandon was going to have to travel overnight. (He's not travelling until next week thankfully!)
I've said this to only a few people, but here goes. . . . . . . . . . . .
I've never felt so alone at any other point in this journey.I feel like I have to guard each word I say.write.post,etc., hoping that I don't offend someone. My thoughts are constantly reflecting on what might have been, as well as the future (mostly the future).
The only time I find peace is when I'm in prayer or listening to music. ** I know that the Enemy is trying to attack me at my weakest. **
*Also, my Granny had surgery on her left shoulder yesterday and isn't doing well. She received a blood transfusion last night and has just been taken off of her pain pump. She's older and has Pulmonary Fibrosis, Crohn's Disease, and Fibromyalgia (along with other issues). Her lung doctor was afraid that she wouldn't wake up from the anesthesia. Please remember her.
IVF #1 (OHSS + 6 frozen Embryos)
The Cost (God ALWAYS provides)