All I Want for Christmas is You

So I'm one of those people who LOVE Christmas music.  I've been listening to my merry songs since Halloween.  (Only because one of the local radio stations starts playing then).  The other day I heard a familiar song that suddenly had a completely different meaning.

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

Oh all the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air

And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need?
Won't you please bring my baby to me?

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door

Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is
You baby

I heard the new version of Michael Buble singing this song and just lost it.  How is it that I could love someone so much already and long for them when they don't even exist.  I've been extremely hormonal the past few days.  I broke down and cried in church yesterday too.   I'm ready to start a new cycle.  I still feel positive that it will work again and I will be pregnant.