Started testing

So I broke down and bought some pregnancy tests.  I took a cheapie once I got to work and the line is super faint.  The trigger must be leaving my system by now. I'm 7dpiui and 9 days post HCG trigger.  My SIL suggested that I keep testing it out of my system and watch for my BFP.  I'm not sure if I will test or not in the morning.  It's still super early and if I just started feeling implantation, it will take a few days for my body to start producing HCG. 

I had cramps yesterday and today.  Maybe I felt implantation?  So far I haven't had any spotting, but I'm starting to see a slight rise in my BBT.  I don't even know how I'm going to make it through the rest of the week.  The 2WW is terrible!!! 

I upset someone today and I feel terrible.  I've just been so consumed with wanting to start a family.  I don't understand why it has to be so difficult for us and all of the others that suffer from Infertility. FWIW I didn't mean to upset you, Corey.  I just want to experience everything that comes along with motherhood.