I'm Ready- Infertility Should Come with a Handbook

AF arrived yesterday.  I was worried that it may take at least 2 weeks for the Progesterone shot to work, but my new cycle started 6 days after the injection. =)
I went to ART for my baseline ultrasound and blood work this morning.  I had a 11mm cyst on my left ovary, but the NP said it was nothing to worry about.  All of my blood work came back normal as well.

• Estradiol:  31.3
• FSH:  5.5
• LH:  9.66
• Glucose:  82
• Cholesterol:  166
• Triglycerides:  61
• Insulin:  5.5

After discussing my labs, the nurse on the phone told me that Dr. Allemand did not want to move forward with the IUI unless they had all of Brandon's frozen sperm at their location.  Needless to say I freaked out and yelled at Brandon.  He was out running errands and dropped by UAB and signed all of their necessary paperwork to move them.  Hopefully, he will be transporting them tomorrow. 

This is all so difficult.  We just spent $556 on my Follistim.  It's going to cost $650 to move and store our frozen sperm at ART.  It's hard to not freak out about all of the money.  Both Brandon and myself are having difficulty totally giving our situation to God.  It's easy to talk about, but one thing to actually do it.  Some days I feel great about it, and others I don't.  It's not like you're given a handbook once you're diagnosed as Infertile.  Maybe I should write one! =) 

My birthday is on Friday and I'm not even excited.  I'm just feeling sorry for myself and being selfish.  I actually told my husband that I didn't want anything, because we can't afford anything with all of the fertility stuff.  For my birthday, I just wish that I could live one day without worrying about my temperature, cervical fluid, injections, upcoming procedures, caffeine intake, Ibuprofen vs Tylenol, and timed intercourse.