Christianity & Infertility

I began reading on a new website today.   It's called Stepping Stones.  I just thought I would share what I read today.  

You and I 
Katherine R. Cottle

You talk with other women and complain about your children.

I have just come from the doctor’s office where I have been poked, prodded, and injected trying to find out why I can’t have what is causing your pain.

I know that children are a blessing from God.

You have been blessed with children and not I. Why?

You talk about how easy it is for you to get pregnant. In fact, all your husband has to do is “throw his pants over the bedpost.” You have the birth of your children all planned out.

I have just miscarried again.

You complain about never really wanting children and how inconvenient it has been to deny yourself for someone else.

I have just finished crying myself to sleep because God said “No” again.

You count the days before you go back to work and leave your child with someone else to raise him.

I wake up on an operating table, praying that this time the procedure will work.

You wake up one morning and you are pregnant

I wake up wondering, How far is too far to go with medical science?

You say, “Just adopt.”

I say, “Do you really think it is that easy?”

You say, “Just forget about it. Relax! It will happen when you least expect it.”

I say, “How can I forget about it? I have had to chart and plan lovemaking and take my temperature for the past six years because ‘timing is everything.’”

Dear Heavenly Father,
Sometimes I feel angry, hurt, confused, and alone. I feel like a great river that has been dammed up and not allowed to run. When I feel that way, please remind me of the great power a dammed river can generate. Help me to know that Jesus loves me and has a plan. Remind me, again, of how rare and precious the gift of life is and of the fact that anyone who is here and healthy is a miracle.

Please keep me from being careless with my words or flippant with my appreciation for Your blessings. Don’t let me ever take Your gifts for granted or throw them back in Your face! Help me to be grateful for all that is good in my life.
Amen.