Monday, September 17, 2012

Pregnancy & Infertility

It was amazing to tell our faith family, and make our news official yesterday.  Brandon and I have thought about getting to tell our family and friends that we're pregnant for quite some time.

We are overfilled with joy, but still reminded that we are on a long road.  When we chose to make our journey public, we knew that we wanted to share everything.  Not many people would announce their pregnancy this early, but we are not most people.  We know that we need even more prayers now to keep this baby(ies) growing each day.

Right now, I am so happy to be pregnant, yet I am heartbroken for all of the mothers who are not.  It was always hard for me to see anyone get pregnant.  Jealousy would consume me.  I would question why it wasn't me.  
A friend of mine got pregnant with her second IVF cycle, only to have her levels drop and miscarry.  I know that she is devastated, yet I cannot even begin to imagine her grief.  She has been there for me, and we have never even met.  She lives across the country, but always found time to check in on me.  When we had no idea how we would afford the medicine for our IVF cycle, she donated over $1000 worth to us.  The past few days have been difficult, because I started testing positive as her levels dropped.  Do you know that she still wanted me to update her each day?  She has provided me with so much support.
I know that many of you who follow my blog are still battling infertility.  I completely understand if following my blog now that I am pregnant is too much.  I have been in your shoes.  I have had to stop reading other blogs because it was just too hard.  I will understand, I promise.   But know that you are in my continued prayers.
  
Each day that we are still pregnant is a blessing.  I will not take one day for granted, because I know how easily it can be taken away.  Brandon and I have never made it this far in a pregnancy, so we feel blessed already.  Every day will come with it's own challenges, but we are choosing to trust God with our pregnancy.

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9 comments:

  1. So so happy for you both! I almost screamed when I saw your posting yesterday! Your journey has been an inspiration to me and has shown me the true meaning of strength and so much more! So excited to continue following your journey and I will be praying for ALL the Boyingtons daily!

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  2. Yayy, so happy for you and congratulations! I have been anxiously following your posts and keeping my figers crossed this whole time. I wish you a happy and healthy 9 months with your little bundle of joy(s).

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  3. Very good post Courtney! It's hard to have that balance and I appreciate all your honesty so much!

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  4. Thank you for being honest about feeling jealousy when others announce and talk about their pregnancies. I want so much to be happy for other women, especially the women whom I know have struggled - and I feel so guilty when instead I'm consuming with jealousy and wishes that it could be me, too.

    Congratulations. I hope the best for your whole family moving forward.

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  5. New follower here... congrats and so happy for you! while I am not currently pregnant (I've had two losses), I know how it feels to finally be in the place you are - overjoyed, but your heart is still aching for those left behind. Many prayers for a healthy and happy pregnancy!

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  6. You have found your true calling, darlin'. You're such an open and honest communicator and a blessing to so many.

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  7. I want to say your friend is an absolute angel and I will be praying for hers...we are starting our IVF cycle (literally an hour from now is our consent appointment!) and yet a close friend at work just miscarried two saturdays ago. I am absolutely heartbroken for her and her husband. :( I keep being told that if she really is a good friend, she will be happy for me (once our IVF works) but at the same time I don't know how I'm going to be able to joyously share anything with her, knowing how much pain she is in. :(

    You are so blessed in so many ways and I wish you the healthiest and happiest pregnancy and can't wait for you to post about your little boy(s) or girl(s) (or both?)

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  8. Congratulations on you pregnancy, I loved the photos! Wishing you a happy and healthy 9 months!!!

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  9. I am so excited for you that you were able to tell about the good news of your pregnancy to those closest to you; those that have been praying so hard for you. What a happy day.

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