We are overfilled with joy, but still reminded that we are on a long road. When we chose to make our journey public, we knew that we wanted to share everything. Not many people would announce their pregnancy this early, but we are not most people. We know that we need even more prayers now to keep this baby(ies) growing each day.
Right now, I am so happy to be pregnant, yet I am heartbroken for all of the mothers who are not. It was always hard for me to see anyone get pregnant. Jealousy would consume me. I would question why it wasn't me.
A friend of mine got pregnant with her second IVF cycle, only to have her levels drop and miscarry. I know that she is devastated, yet I cannot even begin to imagine her grief. She has been there for me, and we have never even met. She lives across the country, but always found time to check in on me. When we had no idea how we would afford the medicine for our IVF cycle, she donated over $1000 worth to us. The past few days have been difficult, because I started testing positive as her levels dropped. Do you know that she still wanted me to update her each day? She has provided me with so much support.
I know that many of you who follow my blog are still battling infertility. I completely understand if following my blog now that I am pregnant is too much. I have been in your shoes. I have had to stop reading other blogs because it was just too hard. I will understand, I promise. But know that you are in my continued prayers.
Each day that we are still pregnant is a blessing. I will not take one day for granted, because I know how easily it can be taken away. Brandon and I have never made it this far in a pregnancy, so we feel blessed already. Every day will come with it's own challenges, but we are choosing to trust God with our pregnancy.
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